Struggles

I noticed that I'm struggling to share my works online and it's probably for the AI situation.

I know what is like not understanding the difference between what's real or not, you can't trust anything that goes in front of you. That's why I never used social media on the first place, you become paranoid and unwilling to stay with others because you have lost all your energy to try to understand if that person you were talking to was real or just yourself.

Because of my stubborn personality and a big chunk of revenge feelings, I started studying for the sake of saving informations. One day I will be so informed that I'm gonna win some sort of dialogue (?) hahaha.

Maybe is just paranoia, I'm in my PMDD phase and I need to take a short break from seeing content online.

Old 2019 drawing - Made while I was trying to recover

 

Working on my website is helping me being "brainless" and give me the nice surprised feeling of: 

- Am I really able to code??? I've found a method against my dyscalculia finally yayyy! -

Birthday +26

Dear God, today I'm older!

I hope to survive more and be able to create more and have fun.
I might be in my PMDD phase, but I'm grateful for being healthy and alive!

My honest reaction:

I've made a short birthday video lmao

I'm so happy to (still) receive nice messages from both my family and friends, but I also enjoyed the nice comments of random people online.

I hope that one day we, as humans, could be able to express more kindness without the word "cringe" being put in every sentence. 

Full Control and other works

I've finally posted my music video on YouTube, exacly when YouTube was having problems and still didn't get fixed.

I've posted Full Control music / lyrics video, I can finally rest a little bit without getting worried about not having a bigger project in my portfolio.

Full Control video

"Promotion" reel on YT

Lore about Full Control:

"When you're tired to sacrifice yourself for people who say to have faith but only for use others"

It happened a lot to me, people who says to believe in God where always the first to betray and judge others, saying that God punishment is near the corner.
It's always others fault, they're the first to throw the rock and never watch back their sins.

WIPs

MV work in progress - learning new methods and old animations

I decided to spend all my energy on my MV project for my upcoming song.
The workload will be MASSIVE, but I'm trying to find other methods for decrease and speed up the amount of work.

I've already posted one video about the ""fast""  animation made with K and it seems people enjoyed it, this makes me feel a bit nervous about people expectations and at the same time this is getting me the strength for finish this project 

I'm using IbisPaint for this type of animation, it didn't took me so long

2D animation was taking me too much time

That was a problem! I'm mainly a musician and I cannot put too much effort in my MVs, right now I can't commission anyone because I don't have enough money to get the right help, also learning 2D animation alone requires a huge amout of time and energy.

In the end I've decided for a more simple animation with the Liquify Pen, where I can keep my painting like art style and use images as collage.

These are some of my attempt with 2D animation: